In my teen years I couldn't hold down a job; my life had no direction. I worked temporarily as a caddie. My first formal job was at a tollway oasis where I learned how to work fast.
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
Monday, August 29, 2016
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Chapter Four Background continued
I had taken a purse out of an unlocked car on a main street in Crowsville and was caught a few minutes after the act. I was under eighteen at the time and was released to my parents. I was poor at telling right from wrong.
I had taken a purse out of an unlocked car on a main street in Crowsville and was caught a few minutes after the act. I was under eighteen at the time and was released to my parents. I was poor at telling right from wrong.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
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When I was a teen there were cars, and I had car wrecks! I had two Corvettes and a MGA1600. One Corvette I totaled, ran it into the side of a concrete bridge. The MGA I totaled by running it into the back of another car. I had two car accidents with my mothers cars.
When I was a teen there were cars, and I had car wrecks! I had two Corvettes and a MGA1600. One Corvette I totaled, ran it into the side of a concrete bridge. The MGA I totaled by running it into the back of another car. I had two car accidents with my mothers cars.
Saturday, August 27, 2016
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I must also say that I had an uncle on my fathers side of the family whom in mid-life committed suicide. Obviously, he to had a world of problems.
Friday, August 26, 2016
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I must report some childhood abuse by my father. He confided in me that he hit me when I was a baby because I was crying. Who knows what else he did, if anything. But one should not forget that he to was abused verbally when he was a child by his father. and who knows, my grandfather may have been abused by his father and so on. My father was also born with a hole in his heart.
I must report some childhood abuse by my father. He confided in me that he hit me when I was a baby because I was crying. Who knows what else he did, if anything. But one should not forget that he to was abused verbally when he was a child by his father. and who knows, my grandfather may have been abused by his father and so on. My father was also born with a hole in his heart.
Thursday, August 25, 2016
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If this wasn't enough, money went through Dad's fingers like it was water. He couldn't handle money. During my childhood years, he was absent from the family more then he was around. Dad cheated on mom for years.
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
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My father's family got over emotional with pets. It was overdone and not normal. they overdid it to the point where Dad developed a love/hate relationship for our pets. During my childhood we had numerous pets. I once observed Dad throwing a 16" softball with a lot on it at a stray cat on our backyard fence. He was always hard on us about feeding the animals.
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
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It wasn't normal to have a father with serious emotional problems. His legacy from his father who mistrusted him and blamed him for things he didn't do made it all the worse. Dad's father was a man who drank heavily and couldn't hold his liquor. Outbursts of anger were often the scenario around the holidays.
It wasn't normal to have a father with serious emotional problems. His legacy from his father who mistrusted him and blamed him for things he didn't do made it all the worse. Dad's father was a man who drank heavily and couldn't hold his liquor. Outbursts of anger were often the scenario around the holidays.
Sunday, August 21, 2016
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Chapter Three
It wasn't normal to have a sickly brother who was born with a serious heart condition. We were both born with opposite sides of our sternum bones sticking up. He is two years younger.
It wasn't normal to have a sickly brother who was born with a serious heart condition. We were both born with opposite sides of our sternum bones sticking up. He is two years younger.
Friday, August 19, 2016
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Chapter three The Middle of Breakdown Number Three (continued)
I was in the Capital Hill Park just the other day communing in the sun when my eyes lay on the tall lanky black next to me. His arms and legs were sprawled all over the place, his head cocked in a weird angle as it met the lush green grass. Then it hit me! Was this the same guy I had seen in my apartment building just standing in an open doorway, frozen? Legs spread like he was walking? Bent forward like he was running?
Somehow my mind had become frozen in time.
I was in the Capital Hill Park just the other day communing in the sun when my eyes lay on the tall lanky black next to me. His arms and legs were sprawled all over the place, his head cocked in a weird angle as it met the lush green grass. Then it hit me! Was this the same guy I had seen in my apartment building just standing in an open doorway, frozen? Legs spread like he was walking? Bent forward like he was running?
Somehow my mind had become frozen in time.
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
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In July 1981, I lost my job at the Colorado Toys and Gimmicks in Englewood, Colorado for an unknown reason.
I started working out of a labor pool also in Capital Hill. I was landscaping a highway with about ten other men of all different backgrounds. I remember the lengths of light sod becoming impossibly heavy. Some men next to me noticed my sudden collapse of strength and moved to help me, only to be backed off by the foreman who was overseeing our production. To me, it meant the beginning of the end.
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
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Sticking my head in a heated gas oven, I tried to recreate how it felt to be the male negro downstairs who was sweating profusely. It didn't work, and I didn't injure myself. What came to mind were the words that had come to consciousness while I was riding a public bus back from an errand on Colfax Street in Denver. a businessman had entered the stopped bus, and he seemed to say to me, "He can breathe, can't he?" To me that meant there was hope! My mind could breathe!
Sticking my head in a heated gas oven, I tried to recreate how it felt to be the male negro downstairs who was sweating profusely. It didn't work, and I didn't injure myself. What came to mind were the words that had come to consciousness while I was riding a public bus back from an errand on Colfax Street in Denver. a businessman had entered the stopped bus, and he seemed to say to me, "He can breathe, can't he?" To me that meant there was hope! My mind could breathe!
Monday, August 15, 2016
Subconscious Soul Words
Soul, subconscious, from a childhood memory, you can adjust your body, eternal life with just a word. It's all tied to the subconscious, we can do anything.
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Words and the Subconscious
Yep! Folks it's a miracle what words can do. They can cure a case of schizophrenia. What else can they do? They can make you feel good or like shit. Words to or from the subconscious, and more miracles. Missing sight or a leg? No problem- the planets, hey were there. We looked back and laughed. a little joke.
Friday, August 12, 2016
New Universes
Black holes, start a new universe here. Just what we need no more. Help out, that's what saves us.
Actually all we need is just what a body needs, there's enough for all now. We make do with what we have and no designs on any other entity. We use our solar system to house bodies.
Actually all we need is just what a body needs, there's enough for all now. We make do with what we have and no designs on any other entity. We use our solar system to house bodies.
Thursday, August 11, 2016
The Helping
Right back to the universes; the helping will probably save us, dumb luck, strange lives, our souls saved to.
The kids move on to other universes, set up outposts and age there, if age even exists.
With the helping a new universe may arise( see the women here, growth ) you never know.
And we don't need a case of the melodramatics, only so much time. It's always work to the break.
The kids move on to other universes, set up outposts and age there, if age even exists.
With the helping a new universe may arise( see the women here, growth ) you never know.
And we don't need a case of the melodramatics, only so much time. It's always work to the break.
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
Universal App
Are we all just physical entities in this universe? Hard to believe with all the suns in the middle of all these galaxies.
Why won't the universes, universal app work? Simple, because the universes go on forever.
Why won't the universes, universal app work? Simple, because the universes go on forever.
Monday, August 1, 2016
Who We Are
Where we come from, violence among other things, is not who are, were basically good people. Like it or not, mind travel, we'll be judged by who we are not what we did. Yet, is what we do who we are? In essence no. And the space creature said, "show me your history." And it ain't pretty, but it's real and eventually useful, we learn.
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