East's Monthly's

    Were waiting for the psychiatrist's to do there job mind travel may be just around the corner.
    Psychiatrist's note: In the book I failed to mention that Dr. Chapman took the Whole Earth Catalog out of the waiting room after the first appointment. And that after he cured the first repression he knew my mind well enough to cure others. Warning: Patients and therapists must read the book in it's entirety or run the risk of being in worse shape. The Book tittle is  Schizophrenia Repression Cured  buy it by downloading  stephenheast.com  available only online. (scroll the cover page up.)

East's Thought's

    Forever becoming forever and all we have to do is say "I am"
    Life: Just for goodness sake; that's our purpose in this seemingly violent universe. Just getting them to say " I am" and nothing else required.
    And another 50 year earth reunion for our minds in space. What! Nobody showed up? I guess we were not that close.
    Alien encounter: New forms of matter and inventions and gifts and it's onto the next.
    And what do we leave behind here for strange travelers? A note with a little story: It wasn't pretty. Keep it truthful , maybe in pictures, something can be learned. Maybe we were just like them.

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    Chapter 8 Showboat Hotel and Casino  page 19 continued
    The next step up from the very small casino that didn't have crap tables or a hotel was a job in a casino that did. This was not easy to attain as I soon learned from my fellow dealers at the Carousel. You had to have connections, pull, know someone who knows somebody else, a relative, or a friend in the business. This I couldn't accept, it just didn't right. When the employees talked about getting ahead, they all seemed to refer to the casinos on the Strip, not he sawdust joints downtown.

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    Chapter 8 Showboat Hotel and Casino Page 19
    After six months of dealing "21" and feeling comfortable about it, I was ready to look elsewhere. Again, I had bad memories of the Freemont and the Horseshoe, so I knew I wouldn't be trying those establishments.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning Page 17&18
   
    I walked into the Carousel Casino , knowing that they dealt out of a shoe. I thoroughly scoped out their situation. I had broken down the components and decided it was about the same thing as using one deck. Using the same line I had used at the Horseshoe months earlier, I told the pit boss, "I can deal this game better then anybody here!" This won me another chance to prove it. After dealing one hand and winning. I was given the job on the spot. At last, I had succeeded in getting what I wanted, and I was proud of myself.

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Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning page 17 continued

    I hadn't as yet secured an apartment of my own. I was living out of a fleabag motel down Freemont Street. I was sharing quarters with two other guys; one was older, a gambler, and the other , a drinker. I didn't feel at all like I belonged and vowed to extricate myself from this predicament. I had a plan: I would try hitting the small casinos nestled between the big combines; then I wouldn't feel as intimidated.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning page 17 continued

    I managed to save a little money and had one last try at being a gambler again. A $50.00 loss jolted me back to reality and in my mind a switch turned off. I was through gambling with my own money.
   

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning Page 17 continued

    I remember the song of the summer "Candy Man" by Sammy Davis, Jr. That had made my summer along with the beer Dave and I would gulp down between jobs. That was the fun of it and the end of it. Dave got canned for drowning his beeper in a pitcher of beer. I had been with the company for two months and offered his position. I declined, citing," I waned to be a blackjack dealer." The  owner tried to persuade me against it, saying, "Everybody wanted to be a dealer!" I wasn't dissuaded, and I quit.

East's Thoughts

    So what form do we become having exploded from or bodies? Can we hear, see, think, imagine, feel, love, all the qualities of mind in motion? Probably; we should be able to become the air, sun, water. Hey! were experienced. And onto the planets, satellites, recharging from the suns and it's onto the next experience.
    And communication to another(s) through the air and space no matter how far is just a thought or an image away.
    Mental illness: blame it on the nature of he beast, human nature, hey, we came from animals. Kind of stupid sometimes. The best we can do for right now is adapt, cope, be selfless, motiveless, and hopefully become our environment, and in this wacky universe of dark energy, dark matter and black holes, become other environments.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning  Page 17

    Roto-rooting in mid-summer with the temperatures in the 90's and 100's reminded me of carrying 4x6 concrete forms in the summer in Chicago. The heat, the sweat, the weight -- boy you really had to be in shape. The only reason I had gotten the job in the first place was because the foreman had broken his arm doing only who knows what? He needed a hand, so I was hired to do the heavy lifting.

East's Thought's

    If something or someone really was controlling us that would really be a reason for us to do drugs or worse,
    As far as man's contribution to society is concerned, he's a liability.
    Misguided social mobility, only good for getting us so far.
    I guess the ordinary man with a little bit of value can make in space life without a whole lot of money.
   If I can. you can. It's for experience itself, learning and helping trip.
   It always helps to have something going for you. Enough is enough-- values.
    It should be a nice day. Time has come today.
    It's been a long earthly journey to realize forever, now we just have to go there forever. It's not that hard and it should be fun.
    We got this far by being selfless and motiveless.

East's Thoughts

    "Oh! For experience sake!"
    "Oh! For life's sake!"
    "Oh! For forever sake!
    "Oh! For freedoms sake!
    In peoples time is good time. Have a good one
    Why can't man stand a crying baby? Because he can't. Damn shame, damn shame.
    It'a worth repeating
    I mean look you've got everything there. The mind, Id, Ego, Libido, Superego and there all in line. You've got the chute, the soul. You've got the catalyst, the cured repression. And all the pointers in a human condition you could ask for. Explosions; like burping, waste expulsion, orgasms, mind blowing, sneezing, vomiting, spitting, nose blowing, ear popping. It all just follows. What are those tie die tee shirts out there for? It just makes sense. Mind travel is possible.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and A New Beginning Page 16 Continued
   
    I started pawing my way through the crowd with my paperwork safely in my back pocket. Having reached the van on the drivers side, I continued to push and shove until I was on the passenger side. I opened the door, climbed in the seat and slammed the door behind me all in one fluid motion that seemed to add righteousness and meaning to the move.
    I quickly pulled out my work referral and handed it to the driver, who unbeknownst to me was the company owner. He took it, shifted into gear and began to divide the throng of surprised and disappointed men. We rode off into the clear mourning sunrise. I was employed and had a future; I would make it yet, and I smiled to myself.

East's Thoughts

    "They had a rough life!" Or did they have a sheltered one?
    Scrabble: The subconscious dancing around the conscious.
    I'm schizophrenic, I serve eternally in this man's so called human army.
    "Yes Sir!' He thought he was more of a man then he really was: An animal and he lived it just for himself.
    A beginning. Man and of course women and all intelligent universal life get to experience forever, forever.
    "Good" is an interesting word, and if you can only be human, what fun is that? If you have a god I guess you are only human.

Easts Thoughts

    The real, good women would agree with man not to start the universe over. Were in this together, not on some foolish lark.
    Lightening's not perfect, and it's the catalyst that got life going and it's in all of us (electricity) It flows in all of us and it only makes sense to say that were not perfect to.
    Searching for the ultimate forever, there all the ultimate forever. We all made up of the ultimate forever. Now it's what we make of it. Different forms, extensions if you will.
    So what do you want? To keep on experiencing, to help, to go on to the next universe. In this dying universe no one gets left behind.

East's Thoughts

    We can act perfectly but were not.
    Were always going after forever and what we do with it along the way is up to us. Hazards! and what do you think, There's different kinds of forever and have a good one be a good one.
    And we learn as go and grow and accumulate more powers. Hey! Were gods now.

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    Chapter 7  Las Vegas and a New Beginning  Page 16  continued

    I fought my way through a labor pool of men six deep that had encircled a lone van, which had pulled up the next day into a desert parking lot. I had paperwork in my pocket entitling me to the job. I saw the van's labeling identifying the business, and I new it was my job.
    The driver, a dark haired middle aged man, seemed a bit overwhelmed with the number of men who had come to encompass his truck and bewildered as to what to do next.
   
   

East's Thoughts

    Men are here, seemingly to remind women that life is not perfect and were not going to be starting the universe over. One direction.
    Women make environments home. As we meld into it, the wind. Have a good one and or be a good one.
    To start the universe over again or not, what difference does it make? We have one to experience right before our eyes.
    We can't stop time and what do we do about our pasts? Pain?
    The tricky subconscious no telling what we can get it to do.
    Foreign environments are tricky, is there anyone there or not? You only know when someone comes up missing. Yep! Tricky and mystical.

East's Thoughts

    If you can't change the world honey, get your man to do it, right, A little tip, he'll do it naturally. (If you want to call man natural.)
    May you go to sleep with a dream and wake up with a purpose.
    Ordinary people who live problematic lives; their only fault was they didn't have enough going for themselves and if they do and fail, maybe, the'll get a second, or even more chances.
    What do we do about our pasts?
    It's about time men and women mostly man share the responsibility and the cost, for the after effects of domestic violence. The poor souls who suffer, mainly the ones hit directly, literally, have very little chance to live an independent life and if they do they breakdown again and again. The government (social security) really gives credit only for time worked. How are they supposed to do that?

East's Thoughts

    A gal in a grocery store line, I ask, "Are you working?" She responds, "Life is work!'
    Domestic violence hurts, the effects can go on long after the deeds, and it hurts others around it., in small insidious ways. How do you stop it? For one thing you use it, then maybe there's no reason for it to keep on happening. Damn it! Were one repression cure away from it-- three months people! Use the cure for mind travel.
    Just so you know I got hit by a bum peg. Don't touch a girl. Fuck it, I'll be friendly and get along, be a fool and do it again.
    Will stupidity win out over the the smart monkeys? Will speed and winning cone in second?
    For some people, if life's not perfect, they turn life into an illness.
    I swear only the so called stupid idiots are happy.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning page 16 continued
   
    I decided I would hit the state unemployment office. That would be the next logical step to take. For now I would at least have to put dealing behind me and go for some other kind of employment.
    Working for the Nevada Plumbing Service was a trip in itself. I got the the Las Vegas Unemployment Office.

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New Beginning Page 15 and 16 Continued
   
    I headed back out into the unbearable desert heat, frustrated that I would have to sleep without anything good to wake up to. What I needed was a plan. As I walked amid the glitter and pizzazz that dominated Fremont Street, I was alone on the fray of society, not sure where to turn next.
    I woke up alert but not fully rested in a small park a few blocks off the beaten path of downtown. I shared it with who I would call a drifter, or just a man down on his luck.i couldn't really tell what his problem was and didn't really care. I had my own problems.

Easts Thoughts

    Adapt to life-- people here, and meld into the environment.
    In my Book, Schizophrenia Repression Cured by stephenheast.com  I start right off the bat."When we start the universe over", Yeah right. I make mistakes once in awhile.
    Peoples values revolve around family and work, otherwise what are your words worth?
    Love, like flowers have no meaning by themselves, and no reason for being here. They just are.

East's Thoughts

    I don't know, it just seems like all the environments in this universe are connected and space is no obstacle, just dark energy and dark matter mixed in, they become space itself.
    Blank tablets! Spit out after space, nothing, met energy, it couldn't agree, hence, you decide, blank tablets are the result, Us! ( After billions of years of growth.)
    Blank tablets! Energy that can grow.
    Once again, soul, the chute, the housing of the mind from which it goes forth. All in line, from the Id, exploding the Ego, the Libido guides, the super ego directs. What are all those tie dye tee shirts doing out there? Surely we can do something withe the mind. Use the cured psychosis to explode it. It all just makes sense-- therapists! Where are you?

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    Chapter 7 Las Vegas and a New beginning Page 15 continued
   
     The dealer beside me told me to finish the hand, which I did. I then spread the cards out in front of me, clapped my hands showing no chips and then moved off. It all took forever and done like I was a paraplegic. I was embarrassed. Jack was nice; he said, "Your not ready yet."I left grateful to be out of there.

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    Updates: In the book I failed to mention that Dr. Chapman took the whole earth catalog out of he waiting room after the first appointment. Also after he cured my first repression he knew my mind well enough to cure all other repressions.

    Warning: If  the patient/therapist don't read my book in it's entirety the patient could end up ion worse shape like me

    Were waiting for the therapists to do there job, mind travel could be just around the corner.